fiz's diary

reflection

2007-01-03T08:17:00.000-08:00

wow....realli been long i blog...but i guess it doesnt matter...its for my own reference..haha..suddenly had the urge to write....mebbie im going crazy..

i always asked myself y did i decide to study psychology...always argues with lecturer and tutors that what we learnt is sort of subjective...yet some how at this point of time i think tat its making sense..the mind is a powerful thing.. and we should take care of it...understand it...

hope its not too late to put thing in perspectve,...guess its the new year thing...or perhaps like piaget says...the mind is maturing..hell ya im nt getting younger...mebbie its true...as you get older u get wiser?yeah..guess so...haha

psychology and couseling are not bad afterall....being able to help and undertand someone i guess its cool..being able to feel when someone fall's down and wak beside him is indeed sastifying..im beginning to undertand what it means that monetery value is not everything...no many people have the luxury to be beside some one who had just fell dwon and walk along with him...the feeing its just tremendous...not tat im getting sadistic and happie for someone who is down but to be able to be congruent adn lend a listenin ear is indeed fulfilin..

n it al started when i saw mum scolding my youngest brother for nt being able to write the letter A....it showed me that in ife many times we failed to understan why someone is behaving in tht manner...in fact..we never fails to join the rest and point our finger to them...thus..when i saw bro was in tears, i just felt relieved that i was able to tel mum that she shudnt push him so hard...at the age of 4, one is unable to perceive curve nor diamond shape..its just due to the brain devopmeent.nting else...yet many a time oarents scod thier kids dofr not being abe to do something other kids coud do...sigh...if ony every one understand the mind and the brin...perhaps time is ust wat we need to get things rite...but then again...do we have the time to wait ttlong?

2005-12-16T17:47:00.000-08:00

#Results out???

Hmm...my fisrt semester result should be out soon....sigh...hope i will do wel...its onli the 1st sem..sigh..how time flies..my lao po is bak from her penag tripYEAH!!
next week is my mid term test..no!!still got my research essay and my computing assignment...
wonder if i can last thru out my studies in un...so much work...still must study...and passes are nt enuff...sigh...
aniwae...heard of BArnum's theory?guess what...for all those who loves online personalty tests and stuff....wll ask yourself this: are those test realli acurate?if it is...ask if issit coz u r influence to believe it as u reflect it as similar?if so..wun there be so many ppl like u?yet each of us are different frm one another?wat an irony?
aniwae that was part of barnum's theory..Do think abt it.... coz at the end of the day..its all in the mind....

2005-12-04T17:37:00.000-08:00

##it"s deCEmber

wow so fast...its end of the year....so many things had happened...amy n i are nowpart of the exco of consort....lotsa work man...im nw in my 2nd sem of my uni life....{some of u mayb luffing as u r in the hols nw rite}as usual its stress and fast...

few more days and amy will be gone to penang while im off to shah alam to assist nelson in Voyage Of SOngs..hope i will do a good job there....hmm....btw i m the officer there man haha...thanks nelson for the trust..

hmm wat else to say.....mebbie later then i update more...in middle of lecture now...dun b ngry k dar...but its boring.....computing skills for social science...arghh........

2005-09-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

#a wonderful lunch at marche wif lao po

hmm...had a great time today.since fasting is starting soon, my dar any suggetsted tat we had a good lunch.as usual when comes to fOod,my dar n i are always in tunewith each other.MARCHE!!
we took a train down frm boon lay to somerset.my princess was late as usual hehe...upon arriving we orederd our food..Amy's frewn,jessica recommended us to try the BLACK PeppEr CHIC CREPES...thank u gal..its something amy n i wun regret buying again n again haha..of coz our normalfood includes rosssti n sausage and tis time we added fish n chips.well we were damn full man..will add more photos but for now lets admire dearie's beautiful pose wehn eating hehe

look at dearie with the fork in her mouth..v hot rite..hmm.. haha

to top up a beau linch,we went to nydc n i intro dar dar to mudpies..we tried the DOuble chocolate mudpies..amy was so ngross iin it that she spill it to my watch..n hu saes my dar cant eat?haha
well,knowing we had a lot of food,we walk to orchard mrt whre dar was getting sme books for her students(so HarDworKing)hehe after which i send her home....dar thanks for such a great meal..hehe love u

2005-09-24T11:10:00.000-07:00

# Happie bdae Edith

well tink tmr is edith bdae..so amy n i would like to wish u a happie bdae edith!!hehe...hope u like the gift we bought u. # to samuel n mui - hey the reason y i biught her tat is nt coz its the easiest way out u knw..as u knw i m a very busy man rite?haha

k lah so much crap bout her bdae..aniwae either refer to samuels blog o edith for more details...wah how time flies im goin into my 2nd term in uni...n seeing my same tutor..THIRU...let me tok abt him a bit..sorry thriru..i ensure u it willstill be nice..

one of my tutor is thiru. he is taking us anthro n soci..tell u he is one cool but weird guy..irony?ya..nt tat im contradicting myself but honestly its been long since i last go to school n felt tired due to thinking..he realli make us think n some times confuse us with his "international slang"btw, he is a UN citizen..like DUH rite?haha no offence ar thiru just felt like toking bout u...
but is wonderful to meet ppl like him in my life journe..it makes u realli sit dwn n wonder..perhaps tat wat they meant byu will understand when u meet an intellectual ppl?haha
i wonder.....n oh ya...Think abt it.....id hte world today an esssetianlist society or a constrycted society?

its been al long time..............

2005-08-27T15:37:00.000-07:00

# it's been a long time..

wow....guess its been real long since i update this page..had been real busy with school....so far school is good...im doin a bachelors of psychology with jcu..i guess i have to thank my lao po for guiding me into making a good decision...(was offered a last min course in nus but she told me to stay with jcu)
Frewns in my new school are fun...wei sion, charlie, my sir alex,vincent,yasotha,zhenji.santhia,peiyun gloria and...RAYmonD...hehe oh n delphanie..

dar...mebbie u shud change my skin?a bit old ar...hehe thanks ar
aniwae..time to go and finish up my hwk...

more to come

2005-07-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

#more to come

Well....finalli i m able to use computer haha..will update more soon esp my trip wif amy

2005-06-16T00:49:00.000-07:00

# OnE More DaE

Wow...im getting so excited..one more day and i m free!! free from the Army haha..have benn doin nothing lately...so life gets kinda of boring.aniwae will be goin for a short trip at the end of the month b4 school start..hope it will be fun ..

recently i went to applied for a job as a tutor at an agency..intially it was just over the phone.the lady asked me what grades i got and i told them everything.after asking what are the subs i could teach n what she told me to teach, she ask me if i m frm nus o ntu.i siply replied that im nt frm either of the uni.i will be an undergrad with an ausi uni.simply coz the course i was offered by nus wasnt the course i waana read for my bachelors.the lady then sort of raised her voice n said "what?u r nt frm nus o ntu?how could it be?u scored 2 A ?or are u lying to me?y not u come down our office n show me the transcript"

i was honestly fuming n pissed...i mean, must ur grades be judged by the uni u r in?so waht if i got 2A.must i study in the local uni?i jus dun get the way the locals are thinking at times..obviously this lady thinks that nus n ntu is the greatest.i agree with that but nt the way she judged ny grades..i work for it n at the end of the dae when ppl doubt ur credibilty it sort of piss me off..ponder this - u dun haf to be the best to b with the best.u haf to be the best nt to be with the best.only then would u see character grows....

2005-06-09T06:07:00.000-07:00

#1 MoRe WeeK

Wow...how tiMe flies...i have already served my beloved country for almost 2 years 4 months..Soon i will be working on a part-time basis for the army(reservist)..Jude, my army pal cum slacker mate will be celebrating the ORD dae next week when we collect our IC..of course i will b bringing my gal.. hehe

Sigh now i got to find a job for my income..and soon got to start studying again...will be studying how human think(perception n deception)haha...hope i wil do well or my mrs will chase me wif a broom..haha..guess i realise now tat i m 'old'..there are many things which i will have to handle myself..seems scary but tats life time to move on

To lao po...happie advance 3yr 5 motnhs anni..dun sae i fgt hor if u read my blog then u knw i din haha sorry mebbie tis time i wun get a gift for u coz im saving for our holidae at the end of the month k?hugz

2005-05-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

#thanks dar.....

wow ..what a week i had...initially was feeling rather down n out.however my amy,wif all her restraints managed to get out on sat to cheer me up..i cud nt ask for more..n guess wat she managed to get her Twins cd haha ..

the next day, i was still kinda sad ..we had planned to take a ferry to a nearby island but due to miscom,amy n i had to stay on mainland singapore haiz....nt onli tat, amy n i had to quarrel..u knw both of us when we r both late...haha sorry dar...went to harbour front where i heard one of my fav song at tis superstore called BIG..if u tink tis is lame,wait till u read on...

i always had been wanting to get to know the title of a instrumental song..its very calm n seranding...but i nvr get to knw the title.so when i was at the BIG shop,it so happened tat the song was aired ..its by this duo called secret garden..n the song name...a song by from secret garden...duh...how lame can it be but oh well...i m just in love wif it..wanted to buy the cd but my lao po conviced me to get the cheapo version...

sigh...had to head back to causeway pt wehre amy bought me the ultimate secret garedn collection..was super happie thanks dar...the cd certainly put a smile on a sad weekend hugz...to my ORD frewns...time to get the IC haahaha shiok bo!!

comp is sick

2005-05-14T02:22:00.000-07:00

sigh my comp is sick...its been long since i update my blog but i guess i cant sae much for now coz in like 5 mins time my pc will go mad again.so till i get it fix,guess my entries will be short o late..aniwae my gf cut her long silky hair...sob ..but no worries coz she look even more dashing now..haha dar im nt lying...hehe will try to upload her pic soon if i can..been quite down lately but thanks to my lao po for cheering me up huz...aniwae to my frens,c u soon k?

2005-04-24T12:00:00.000-07:00

#Public apology.

sorry for the delay..this post had to be re-edit..i haf to make a public apology to my gf,amy..we quarrelled over the phone juz now and as usual it is my stupid fault...

"to amy, i m sorry k?lets fgt wat had happen today..i wun dwell on tings animore n will work hareder now..congrates on ur posting.u got wat u deserve..we shall celebrate it..as a form of apology n ur hard work..i bought u the camo skirt u like frm jb...suprised?hehe sorry k?forgive me k dar?hugz"

ya...so many things happen this week..things got tension up bewteen my gf n i..she was hiding frm me ur posting to NTU Bio Siceinces...y?coz she dun wan me to worr..n apparently i was dumb..so far oni the gers got their posting..nt many guys had theirs...obviously the inferiroty complex set in but my angel....she din look dwn on me...i m proud of her..thanks dar...

aniwae..this entry is a rushed one...so cant haf food for thought..but mebbie...treasure who u love...i love u amy

# The MeN duN get It

2005-04-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

# The MeN duN get It

Was readiN my gerl's blog when i came a cross a tag which says - "mei mei to amy: take care dear,love u miss u.."...it gave me kinda of a shock to c ur gf being loved by someone..haha then i came to realise tat it was nt a guy but rather her frewn, mei mei...My 2nd thought was...is she a les now?..aniwae to those who tink tat my relationship is over,sad to sae its nt...haha we r still 2gether..but it gaf me some idea to blog about..

i guess the way guys n gers behave r different indeed ...amy says it's common for gers to say such things to their ger frewns..i find it however woerd for guys to sae that to our guy frewns...eeks..sound as if it is something nt rite...hahha..aniwae,i guess it is hard to fully understand hw gilrs behave?n mebi due to the failure to understand tis tat it causes couple to quarrel?yet if we remove the differences would the world be a complex place to live in?

i guess some stuff in life are never meant to be understood?there is an olden saying tat goes after a q,a couple gets closer n stronger...mebie coz of tis we q?if nt a couple wun be strong?haha dunnolah mebie we juz dun get it... : )

cLEarInG Of ThiNgs...

2005-04-15T22:40:00.000-07:00

wow it has been a few days since i left my blog alone hehe...i was busy packing up my cupboard in my bunk as i will be Officialy Relieve of Duty..ORD soon...hahah...how time flies...to those who were just enlisted..dun complain,u term had been shorten..

aniwae todae is the 1st day i clear my leave..as my lao po was ill,i prepared her some soup n macaroni cheese..We went out after the siple meal..Amy wanted to go somewhere different today so we took 160 to woodlands to visit the sengsong?but guess what?she din bring her wallet...(OUCH)..the journey there was smooth frm JE..she slept all the way n we were lost..why?coz amy assume that bus will go there..we end up at woodlands checkpoint..it was so embarassing...hwe haf to find our way out of the immigration lor...sigh..lesson learnt-amy next time i navigate k?haha

at the supermarket,we bought some tid bits...walk aroung the oold shopping arcade..it was a refreshing outing indeed...for couples who haf been together for long,u mite wanna try this..haha
thanks to amy for her wonderful suggestion except for her blunder lahz...well..now that im home guess i haf to unpacked the things i brought home...

To my 5 pl 2 army mates-jude,gerry,jiarui and wang...njoy our leaves while waiting for the pick IC..will miss the chaotic days when we go out sia..haha

SoRrY TeAChEr....

2005-04-12T23:01:00.000-07:00

hmm..2days int blog...haha was bz in camp.aniwae,tonite got the chance to BlOg.so here i am crapping again hehe...

for the past 2 days my gerl sort o complained to me about her classes.she sort of pissed as her students din do her hwk n skip study group..guess it was normal for students to skip class?aniwae,the point is tat she make me ponder bout some stuff bout teachers.i am sure many of us are gulity of skipping class,nt doing hwk and stuff, but do we often spare a thought about our teachers?ever since my gf became a relief teacher,i saw that she put in a lot of effort.it is no joke preparing lessons plan and waht to teach.after giivng hwk,she still haf to mark it.yet nvr once did she complain.she make me realise that teaching is indeed tough.students like me doesnt help making the load of a teacher lighter.i realise i was a pest in school man..before i carry on i think i wanna sae something..

TO My teachers In TKSS,TPJc esp mr lim,ikgu shamsiah,mrs foo and my econs tutor...sorry for my laziness in school...i appreaciate your effort..hmmm 1 more teaher..mdm mariam..thnkas for everything...aniwae cikgu n mr lim,my hist n mlep are now grade A hehe...cudnt have done it wothout your help....

to fellow sudents..mebie we shud take time off and hink 4 we skip class?our teachers are indeed always there for us but the worst way to hurt them is by skipping o slacking in class...so pls dun hurt them?

21 YEars On EaRth

2005-04-09T22:00:00.000-07:00

# 21 YEars On EaRth

BefoRe i begin,let me side track a bit...Went online to do this fruity test wich my gal kept telling me n the result is...............(to my gal disappoint i guess ahaha)

Aniwae,todae is my 21st birthday...i wake as sual but the moment i woke up,my little bro shouted" happie bdae".haha after that i had to rushed to camp for work,skipping SYC in the process.after my work ended,i met up wif my gal.she had planned to walk form orchard to bugis.we started off by going to taka as she had to return her book.following that,as usual,my gal wanna eat some gelato ice-cream.we bought the hazelnut flavour.it was nice.Upon finishng it up,we went to paragon where we caught a fashion show...man,to be honest,i tnk my lao po is more appealing than the ladies there...sigh..haha..we left the place after half an hour and
we headed down to PS n along the way past istana a gov car drove out n she start asking me lame tings like y muz it be volve n white....dar...duH!!hehe..At Ps,we started to shop n as usual..its food tat we bought...tried this jap tingy called tori dnno wat lah($3 for 1 box-according to amy it was a bargain)verdict of tat food-cool...very nice...thumb ups for AmY.we enjoyed this delicay at yoshi..bought karetagi hehe n it was nice...lao po then suprised me wif a bdae song and a chocolate fudge cake...i haf to confessed tat i was supper full man that i had to sit for 20 mins b4 we move on our journey to bugis....oops let me sidetrack again..i saw a very nice bag n amy said it would be my bdae gift(dar dun spend the $$ away)....kk back on track..as i was too full we deicded nt to walk but to take a train to bugis to take neo print...i had to carry the rubbsh tat we ate frm PS to bugis...aniwae will post the pic later...

After that,amy got to rush home while i meet up wif parents for dinner at PIzza Hut...sigh i tink i m super fat now man...but what to do nt everydae i turn 21 rite?haha mum went on to hunt for amy belated bdae present n tat conclude my dae...

haf to sae i m very happi n full now...got to spend my dae with my fam n my amy...lotsa $$ had been spend but its the smile tat i get to c on the faces that makes me happie...thank u dar,thanks to mun n dad n family for making todae a sweet dae for me...love u all always...hugz....
btw,there are others whom i wanna thank for their best wishes..mebbie i shall do it tml...for now...i wanna play some game hehee ...b4 i leaved...my food for thought- your loved ones are your strength.often they are hurt by us,however,rarely do we express our appreciation for them..why?coz they dun demand much from us.it just takes a smile n a hug to warm and put a smile bak to them...perhaps this is why we keep hurting them? :)

KickSTArt Of ThE HafiZ DAtooTs FesTivaL

2005-04-08T21:27:00.000-07:00

# KickSTArt Of ThE HafiZ DAtooTs FesTivaL

Hmm...where should i start?hehe.after a long wait, my lao po finally suprised me with this blog.It was her bdae gift to me..thanks dar...it is very sweet of you and i love it hugs..aniwae..tdae,my gf amy,startedy bdae celebrations.after her work,she accopmanies me to do all the things i like n loved..thanks love..my actual bdae date is TML.... :) and of course she has planned more celebrations for me tml haha nt fgting my bdae dinner wif my creators..my family lah haha

Enuff crap bout the bdae tingy,as i approached my 21st Bdae,i have to thank my lao po for she make me realise something useful in life.Take for example this blogskin.Previously i used to think that birthday= presents.however now, that myopic mindset had been changed.Amy gaf me this as my gift.somehow it make me feel very hapi n proud.I realise that the thought n effort your loved ones do for you on your special day is more meaningful than ani present $$ could buy....To know That ur loved ones sacrifice their time (my gerl is a workaholic tat every min im wif her,she nver fail to yada yada yada bout work) to do personalised things like this simply is astonishing.Thanks dar..hugz..in fact i cant thank u enuff coz without ur nagging n ur pushing,i wudnt smell my A's in the exams hahhah..hugz...

that would be it for my maiden entry..i hope i m nt chasing u reader's away..hehe c u soon!